Part 29 of…

Messed Up Love

“Hey jade, Its ____, Kira’s going into labor…Please say you’ll be at the hospital!”

“____? Ummm yeah I’ll be there.” Jade replied. Jade had a tone of sadness in this voice. He missed ____so much. Just like ____ missed him. She then hung up the phone and ran to the car.

“Davey, you have to go faster.” Kira screamed.

“OK, Just don’t complain. ____, did Jade say he was coming?” Davey said.

“Yeah he’s coming…he’s going to meet us there.”

“ok!” Davey replied. They got to the hospital. Jade was already there. ____ saw him and started to cry.

“Jade, I love you, I don’t want it to be over, I’m sorry, I cant go through life without y…” Before ___ could finish her sentence Jades lips were pressed against hers.

“I’m sorry I left you ____, I thought you’d be better off with out me.”

“How could you think that. I love you to death. Oh yeah…Im pregnant…your gonna be a father.” ____ said.

“I am. Aw that’s great. I’m sorry I left you.”

“Its fine, its in the past.”

“I love you with all my heart ____, I never want to be without you.” Jade said holding on to _____.

“I never want to be without you ethier.” ____ replied as she kissed Jade on the lips. She soon started to cry, with happiness. She was happy her and Jade were back together…

“____, im gonna ask you again, Will You Marry Me???”

“Heck yes I will.”  ____ said hugging Jade and taking the ring.  Davey walked out of the room the doctors took Kira in.

“she had a boy.” Davey said smiling.

“That’s awesome, what are you going to name him?” Jade replied.

“Andrew!”

“Awesome, that’s a good name.”

“they are going to keep him here a few days, cause he’s having a little trouble breathing. But they say he’ll be fine.” Davey said sitting down. They all just decided to sit and wait. _____ was holding Jades hand, and leaning on his shoulder thinking, How could I have let him go, I’m so retarded. But that’s the past, what is to care about is what happens in the future.

To Be Continued….maybe

Part 28 of…

Messed Up Love

“I guess its ok.” Kira and Davey said. Ryan smiled.

“its ok with me.” Ryan screeched. ____ smiled, She looked at Davey how began to frown. Davey was thinking why would she do this to Jade, but then he thought about Jade dumping her, and not wanting to see her again.

“ok, I guess I should say, my name is _____. I know your Ryan. Lets go to the movies, or something like that.”  _____ said.

“Yeah ok, lets go.” Ryan smiled. Peter smiled…Peters plan worked. Ryan actually like ____, but he didn’t want to hurt her, and he didn’t want to get hurt either, Yeah he was going to go out with her for a while, but  he just wanted her to be happy. So he just went out with her, and would let her decide.

“What movie do you want to see?”

“Jacky Chan.”

“Ninjas, no, reminding me.”

“Oh, um well, I don’t know.”

“how about we just go to the park or something.” ____ said.

“well Panic! At the disco is going to have a show in like 3 hours. If you want to go?” Ryan suggested.

“Aw that would be amazing!” _____ said.

“Ok so that’s are date…you seeing me play my guitar on stage.”

“Rock on!!!”

“Yeah Rock on.” Ryan said, _____ then walked to her room. She looked at her stomach reminding her of Jade. She did truly still loved him, but, he’s the one that dumped her, right? She sat there and sobbed under her breath and then had to throw up again. She grabbed the trash can and threw up. Kira was done with the morning sickness stage. ____ started to cry, but then Ryan walked in.

“____ are you ok?” Ryan asked.

“Yeah I just don’t feel good. I mean about the whole pregnancy thing.” ____ replied. Ryan sat beside her, he kissed her softly on the lips, it shocked her, it shocked himself, surprisingly she kissed him back, and she then stopped crying. Why? I don’t know, but she did, just as if she already forgot about Jade.

2 hours passed. _____, and Ryan left to go to the Panic! At The Disco concert. They went, stayed a few hours, _____ thought Ryan looked amazing. Well he did. The show lasted 3 hours, then the stayed to sign autographs and take pictures, the took 2 hours. In all it was 5. Ryan and ____ went back to Peters house. _____ thanked Ryan for taking her but, she didn’t know if it would work out.

“Can we just be friends?” ____ asked.

“Yeah, I think it would work better.” Ryan replied.

“Yeah me to, but we can still go out every now and then, you know.”

Yeah, we can that be nice. Well I better get going.  Nice to meet you.”

“Yeah nice to meet you too.’’ ____ said as she watched Ryan out the door.

8 Months Later.~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

“Davey, come quick, I think Kira’s water just broke.” ____ screamed.

“Ok, ____ go call 911, we need to get her to the hospital.”

“Just take her davey!”

“Fine, Kira. Can you walk?”

“Yeah, I think so.” Kira said as she got up and walked to davey. From there on Davey carried her. ____ didn’t care, she called Jade. She hasn’t talked to him for 9 months, and she was 8 months pregnant with his child.

This may be stupid..i want people to know this....Memory of the World Trade Center.

No Connection

A poem dedicated to my brother…. whom I never see….or talk to….

You said no longer I have to cry…

No longer tears can fall from my eyes…

You said you would be there…

That your honestly really cared…

As far as I know…

I had to watch you go…

If I had a wish…

I would wish…

I could see you again…

Talk to you…

See you smile, hear you laugh…

Like brothers and sisters do…

You left the family…

Why cant you see…

See me cry….

Having tears fall from my eyes…

You made me hate myself…

Thinking its all my fault that you left…

Disconnected phone lines….

Emails that no longer work…

My eyes that can no longer cry….

Because I cried out my soul…my heart…I have nothing left.

You don’t have a soul, I don’t even think you have a heart…

I wish I didn’t know you from the very start.

You cared when I was little….

You would laugh, you would smile…

You would spend time with us…for a while…

Why did you leave….

Why cant I speak to you…

DO YOU HATE ME???

DO YOU HATE THE FAMILY!!

I WANT TO SPEAK TO YOU…BUT YOU KEEP RUNNING….

The door is closed…

Trying to escape my doom

I’m crying

Staring at a knife…

I’m dieing…

Staring at what could end my life…

I’m out of my room…

The door is opened…

I’m facing my doom…

I’m no longer crying…

Not staring at a knife…

No longer dieing…

Staring at what could end my life…

I thinking…

Thinking of a face…

Sinking….

Sinking in disgrace…

You…are…

You…are…the face

The face of disgrace…

You are my doom…

That’s outside my room…

I’m staring at you face…